As is disturbingly typical, I'm afraid to report, your action has caused me to see, once again, that my question is not urgent. I read your e-mail and I am musing "Hmm.. hmm... you know *grunting in the general direction of* gee... I wonder what I would like to ask E.J. about gaming and spiritual growth"... truly an open invitation, and i'm sure I have questions... and see... I have no hope at all in this situation. Not for reflexive awakening. Never, not, i'm dead in the water... the question is not urgent enough. It's not on the tip of my tongue! Not accessible, ready, immediate. I don't actually have a question.

That's the problem.

That's been the problem. No burning centrum of gravity question. I'm in perpetual bardo limbo. And I did *used* to have a question, Claude-baby...and plenty of fuel for the fire. Further, it doesn't even have to be "THE" question... it's practicle to work with many a decent question... just "work profitable" ones, I know that. But truly, Claude, I can see that I have no centrum of gravity. No burning question to latch onto... act as guide. 'The question is the answer', yes, in that it's the most compelling guide to the attention to latch onto and navigate the bardo. With simple presence, the attention goes right with the question. You know. And *God* knows E.J. went the farthest to help me refine the question. Thankfully, and he helped me to notice the 'function of question' how it is key in navigating the bardo. Also, refine the question. The more refined the question, the more of a *slingshot* guide it became for the attention.

Reflexive awakening. Really awakening working with ideas. And, of course, we question thru the body, mind, emotions... the different centers, and that's all well and good. Yet, the wrong question will never bring the 'work profitible' or 'right' answer or awakened reflex. And a highly refined question, like the type of questions E.J. turned me onto, with simple presence, well they take you back thru time, thru genetic trace, thru the cosmos, macro and micro; you could wear it inside out. The 'trick' of awakeneing. I need a better question Claude... i'm crying on your shoulder now buddy. I need a better question and for somebody to *please* talk to me about fuel! Point to it... i'll burn it. I never needed it for anything else otherwise! hahaha

Thanks Claude for being there to bring my sad story to you. Thanks for all the times you've been there. Yeah... and a general thanks, too *smiles*...

okee... bye bye.